You know that you put yourself in this position, and you recognize that your laziness and procrastination is what got you into this backlog mess. No one is there to help you, and that seriously gets on your nerves. But, what you find is that you need to accomplish so much that the only way you can do it, is by diving in, all alone. The pressure feels like Hell you seriously do not want to do this work, yet, if you don't, you'll get fired. Now, it's past due and still demanding of your time.
You were supposed to get something done and you failed to do so.
What's going to bring about dreaded feelings of loneliness, for you, Aquarius, is that you're going to have to spend time alone, making up for lost time at work.